It isnt the summer...coz the summer I can stand....the harshness of the sun....the total lack of wind.....and the feeling of being stuck.....like a sail boat in an ocean on a calm day....the dripping sweat .....the stickiness.....the relentless heat....all this i can stand.....i was built that ways.....but it is the cold....the frozen moment where time stands still.....the wind that screams past my window.....punching me in my face.....that yearning of warmth that it brings in me.....and the melancholic solitude that follows....it is the winter that causes rust to settle under my moist eyes....that slowly eats away at my soul....inch by inch.....moment by moment.......untill all thats left of me is just my body......and i am empty inside.......it is that moment when i truly feel alone but yet numb to feeling......walk through life everyday......doing what i am supposed to....saying like i am expected to...smiling.......mechanical....like a zombie....every single day.....worried that someday when i really do stop and wonder at who i am.....all i see is nothing but someone faking himself......feel like tearing my skin......my flesh.....myself apart.....as everyday i find myself sinking calmly and slowly into the water....like drowning in slow motion.....and realizing every single bubble that i blow out.....till my imminent brain damage.....and my impending death.