two face

two sides of me....one that wants to just exist....be happy with the present....enjoy the little things in life....take time to savor the moment.....totally at peace with myself......the other restless....sleepless.....yearning to move forward.....running when possible....trudging mostly....dragging the other part.....crawling even....just to keep moving...."trying to fill the minute....with 60 seconds worth of distance run"............in this endless pursuit to be that idea of self....to that someone that i want to be......the truth of who i am.....lies somewhere between the two......some dynamic and ever changing combination of these two sides......complementing and contrasting each other endlessly.....